Abuse

I swear I told myself, “the next one will be fluff and something happy” well guess I lied

I don’t like the pain

I don’t want the pain

But I deserve the pain

The pain that will never go away

You can use me

You can destroy me

You can throw me away

Once you get bored of me

You keep me sane

Yet you do the bare minimum

You make me feel loved

But I know it’s all an illusion

You used to be my father

Now you are just a stranger

You used to be my family

Now you are just a memory

I don’t like you

Yet I still care about you

If you where to die

Something in me would join you

No matter how hard I try to forget

You live in the corner of my mind

Along with your cigarettes

Oh how you used to be so kind

I want to leave these times behind

I need to leave them

But I cant just forget

This is what built my character

All of this pain and suffering

All from one action

I don’t think I can handle

This emotional abuse anymore